Saturday, March 20, 2010
mann..
been procrastinating to blog abt like a zillion and one things till i forgot what they are alrdy.
how i wish i can be as diligent as before blogging so often with like all the minute details so that i can read in the future and remember what happened in my life before. tsk procrastination kills. also partly seems that i have so limited hrs in front of the comp nowadays. getting out of the hse early morning, and returning back late night. and weekends seems to be packed too. it seems more difficult to save when u start working as compared to during schooling :(
there's like so many thingiess on hand now
i wonder how many donkeys are there out there like me, haven finish thinking what course to take and then start registering at the uni webs. it's like so many and so many ppl chiong-ed to register on the day of results release, then after the uni open hse etc. and im like still struggling oh great, what do i want to take=.= i better not procrastinate till i miss the closing date then good day, i'll end up uni-less.
recntly, i keep having this feeling of im always being a trouble to people ard me.
like people could possible have easily proceeded on but becuz of my presence, they are affected and things have to happen differently as compared to if i wasn't ard. hmph.
and any kind soul out there can help me with this irritating pop up that pops up like every 1 min or even faster than that. i dun even freaking use twitter and wad is this doing here.
oh randomly flipped some old entries to see and i realized i took great pain and everything last yr to cope with a's. seems like the continuous mugging period for a's was too long till it became like i forgot i tht i couldn't put in so much. but eventually i did, just like how i did it during o's. similar situations to struggle on for similar situations. but it's kinda sad that i din really have much reaction to my a's results. isit because i had unrealistic hopes/becuz i really dunno what to expect realistically for a's/becuz of that C smacked in the results slip?
like look at what im getting even at the last major sch exams, PRELIMS.
in case u dunno, fyi, a sub pass is actually still a fail grade, just that the marks is like u JUST failed, so they make it sound nicer & based on this grading sheet, my a lvl points is like 27.50/80. how much more demoralizing can it get. thats like only ~35%
and it's like not that this wasn't the case for other major exams.
in fact prelims is my 2nd best scoring major exam arldy.
the best one was PROMOS.
the fear of retaining in mj is so humongous that i mugged my lungs out as hard as i did for o's or even harder.
somehow i din feel happy when i got my a's grades. maybe it's really becuz of the c smacked there that affected me. not tryin to boast or what sort ever, but since psle and o's, a c has never appeared on the results slip, so i guess thats why im taking it hard. actually i couldn't ask for more for other subjects. i think i deserved what they are. like getting a B for h2phy is like never happened in my life for the 2 whole yrs in mj. i failed 4/5 phy major exams and passed 1 on the dot. impossible to ask for an A isn't it.
at first i tht i din do that well, like as in any normal meridian i turn to would probably have similar grades as me, so there wasn't much happiness. but actually over time i realized, it's actually not bad! considering 27.5/80 (or with pw 37.5/90) compared to 83.75/90. i think i hold too high expectations or im just being too greedy. haha. and somehow i felt happier after reading some random posts abt not wasting my sacrifices to mug for a's!
oh what a wordy feeling feeling kind of post.
if u feel like commenting anything after reading the whole chunk above, just leave a tag or post a comment(it will be screened & not published) (:
anwayyyss...
@mrs ceo park cum mrs kim: what maybe u shld go ask the person to import?!?! IS U MUST GO ASK! if have then not like some crazy price, i wan buy!! hello hello since u are mrs ceo park and mrs kim, can i have like royalave merchandise and mr kim endorsement merchandises?
@yingsi: hey yoo busy girl with like a zillion camps! pls take care and we'll meet soon(: and i still dun like ur cannot track back to older post blog! haha
@pc,ellekay & ahmui: lol it's a season for url change?
@ellekay: that time i wanted to change skin, so din wan to like so troublesome put the links on this default skin, then end up keep procrastinating forever till now i haven change the skin! and girl whyyy u remove ur tagboard huh huh! TSK.
@ahmui: hahahhaha ahmui u sound like i owe u smth then must remember for life! haha will relink when i get a new skin up!
been procrastinating to blog abt like a zillion and one things till i forgot what they are alrdy.
how i wish i can be as diligent as before blogging so often with like all the minute details so that i can read in the future and remember what happened in my life before. tsk procrastination kills. also partly seems that i have so limited hrs in front of the comp nowadays. getting out of the hse early morning, and returning back late night. and weekends seems to be packed too. it seems more difficult to save when u start working as compared to during schooling :(
there's like so many thingiess on hand now
i wonder how many donkeys are there out there like me, haven finish thinking what course to take and then start registering at the uni webs. it's like so many and so many ppl chiong-ed to register on the day of results release, then after the uni open hse etc. and im like still struggling oh great, what do i want to take=.= i better not procrastinate till i miss the closing date then good day, i'll end up uni-less.
recntly, i keep having this feeling of im always being a trouble to people ard me.
like people could possible have easily proceeded on but becuz of my presence, they are affected and things have to happen differently as compared to if i wasn't ard. hmph.
and any kind soul out there can help me with this irritating pop up that pops up like every 1 min or even faster than that. i dun even freaking use twitter and wad is this doing here.
oh randomly flipped some old entries to see and i realized i took great pain and everything last yr to cope with a's. seems like the continuous mugging period for a's was too long till it became like i forgot i tht i couldn't put in so much. but eventually i did, just like how i did it during o's. similar situations to struggle on for similar situations. but it's kinda sad that i din really have much reaction to my a's results. isit because i had unrealistic hopes/becuz i really dunno what to expect realistically for a's/becuz of that C smacked in the results slip?
like look at what im getting even at the last major sch exams, PRELIMS.
in case u dunno, fyi, a sub pass is actually still a fail grade, just that the marks is like u JUST failed, so they make it sound nicer & based on this grading sheet, my a lvl points is like 27.50/80. how much more demoralizing can it get. thats like only ~35%
and it's like not that this wasn't the case for other major exams.
in fact prelims is my 2nd best scoring major exam arldy.
the best one was PROMOS.
the fear of retaining in mj is so humongous that i mugged my lungs out as hard as i did for o's or even harder.
somehow i din feel happy when i got my a's grades. maybe it's really becuz of the c smacked there that affected me. not tryin to boast or what sort ever, but since psle and o's, a c has never appeared on the results slip, so i guess thats why im taking it hard. actually i couldn't ask for more for other subjects. i think i deserved what they are. like getting a B for h2phy is like never happened in my life for the 2 whole yrs in mj. i failed 4/5 phy major exams and passed 1 on the dot. impossible to ask for an A isn't it.
at first i tht i din do that well, like as in any normal meridian i turn to would probably have similar grades as me, so there wasn't much happiness. but actually over time i realized, it's actually not bad! considering 27.5/80 (or with pw 37.5/90) compared to 83.75/90. i think i hold too high expectations or im just being too greedy. haha. and somehow i felt happier after reading some random posts abt not wasting my sacrifices to mug for a's!
oh what a wordy feeling feeling kind of post.
if u feel like commenting anything after reading the whole chunk above, just leave a tag or post a comment(it will be screened & not published) (:
anwayyyss...
@mrs ceo park cum mrs kim: what maybe u shld go ask the person to import?!?! IS U MUST GO ASK! if have then not like some crazy price, i wan buy!! hello hello since u are mrs ceo park and mrs kim, can i have like royalave merchandise and mr kim endorsement merchandises?
@yingsi: hey yoo busy girl with like a zillion camps! pls take care and we'll meet soon(: and i still dun like ur cannot track back to older post blog! haha
@pc,ellekay & ahmui: lol it's a season for url change?
@ellekay: that time i wanted to change skin, so din wan to like so troublesome put the links on this default skin, then end up keep procrastinating forever till now i haven change the skin! and girl whyyy u remove ur tagboard huh huh! TSK.
@ahmui: hahahhaha ahmui u sound like i owe u smth then must remember for life! haha will relink when i get a new skin up!
# posted by binz : 3/20/2010 04:55:00 AM
