binnnnn

i had alot of rantings today.
haix what can we/i do when they themselves are not seeing it or smth?
haix it's like countdown 10 more days.
im worried.
i feel very much for this co.
i dun wan our reputation to just poof like that
it's not fair when certain ppl work hard and others dun
but the world is just unfair. i know.
but seriously at least ppl pls get enlightened soon. really soon
it's not the standard yet.
it's kinda difficult to attain a great standard given the remaining time
but at least if u all try, we can get nearer to the standard.
please.
it really affects my mood greatly.
i was totally off mood right after da zu ended.
the atittude and things. pissed me off.
it was like so weird of me to sit at the corridor there to stone
how i wished that i had this thing to cover me so that no one could have seen me
that place saw very nice to emo.
i couldn't think much, i just stared into space.
k lucky no one came to ask much
or else i would have turn on the tap.

yup went back to prac my stickings to relieve myself
argh stupid my left hand still isn't performing
but at least i can feel that it's way better than before(:
yay i tried to prac my ex 5 and 17
and wheee i also got to prac the side stick technique on the snare drum!
i should bring my own pair of sticks next time then can prac after co!
im getting the feel of the side stick thingy(: yay!

oh i realise there is actually someone who stalks me!
and that is none other than miss chua jie min!
haha you siao ting tong ah go observe me until like that for what huh!
know like every single thing i do throughout the few hours.
but anw thanks(:
bu kui shi so many yrs of fren!

anw i think i gonna have xing ge fen lie soon.
i was like mood swinging like shit when i was practicing my sticking
one side was emo-ing over the concert
and yet the other side i was sms-ing qq and highing over clothes, bugis and ya.
and haha it's so cool that we both have unlimited sms then keep sms-ing
argh im afriad im gonna get overwhelmed and cannot differentiate.
hopefully it doesn't happen.

somehow im very bei guan today.
i went on and on and on abt
-人生的丑陋
-我黑暗的前途
-对人生厌倦
-对人生毫无期待
-对人生绝望
-世界是没有只好无坏的事
-bla bla bla

and argh at first i was looking forward to 18
cuz can learn driving liao and whoo
but i realised omg im turning 18 like soon and really soon?!?!?
it's so damn it old.
especially when u walk among the ahs lower sec ppl
i feel damn old =.=
but haha i should console myself that at least turning 18 is still younger than turning 20

finally,
hmph isit really their fault?
or is it because he has too low expectations for them?
or because they seriously dunno that they are lousy and then it's our fault for not tellin them?
food for thought..
argh think too much liao, kinda hungry!