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it has been quite a while since i last posted..
i always wan to blog and post
but tht thought of some ppl whom i dun wish that they will read
will get to read it somehow
then im pulled away from bloggin..
maybe i shall just change the url one fine day
or just lock up and only let ppl who ask me, to read.
dunnno. there is alot of things that i always wan to rant
more than i ever had in the past.
though my frens are still out there
but i dun wan to always turn to them just to su ku.
it's like unfair to them
they have to listen to me su ku and yet i dun feel that im contributing much to their lifes recently somehow.
i wan back my life and time.
i hate the uncertainties that i have now.
it's like i carn make confirm plans or anything
any bomb can just fall from the sky and explode
somehow im glad that you guys are still out there when i needed you
especially this period that i was really troubled and down.
getting worried over alot of things and getting pissed off and everything.
seriously i carn seem to let them off at others.
but lucky i managed to let it all out at the bus stop that day hur.
okay i noe it's very the wrong place to choose the bus stop and right under the light but yar who cares. haha
im grateful for you guys(:

anw happy things first.
no im not gonna say promos is over.
the happy thing is yay mlb's 2nd baby is out in the stores!
do support them! 三角行 triangle. i like the cover. it's yellow! and striking~
i wouldn't say the album is a perfect one.
neither is it a failure.
it's good but somehow something is missing.
kind of different from wad i expected.
dunno isit a good thing or not or isit just me..
their creation feels more commericialised.
i prefer the very mlb feel in their creations in their first album..
but still there is great music in there
and yay events lining up!!
finally im going for their gig after 4350968243524 yrs

somehow im happy that i have been going crazily after this band for so long
yea i still can remember clearly how i started going crazy over them
SUPER RANDOM
anw the thing is that because of them,
i made new frens. man serious frens.
not those hi bye frens. but real frens
and it's really cool. i have never thought of making frens outside school
and the first time meeting up with them was cool too.
many new experiences and memories.
never went to mdc so many times in a yr before. i did this yr.
never tried running out of a recording studio right after a live show. did many times this yr.
and never smiled to myself so many times after countless saturdays.
and the never ending conversations just over one sss or one event. haha
these mlbians made my day.
also, always goin to the blog to check out for updates or new tags is also a must do thing now.
i never fail to smile to myself or cheer when there is new posts or tags by them.
sometimes it's just a very simple tag, but it can make my day(s).
and they were one of my greatest motivation during o's.
and the most significant thing that happened recently was,
i cannot take the temptation to sleep whenever i reach home the few days that i have papers
and it's like i have paper the next day and yet i can slp.
but yar lucky i still have the morning to study..
but the main thing was,
the day i got my san jiao xing, i practically stayed awake all the way until 1+ or 2+
cuz i was totally immersed in listening, ripping them into my phone and studying maths.
they allowed me to stay awake to study maths, or else i wld have gone to slp.
yea thanks(:
oh just to mention, i think it's really cool that i met qq at popular and we bought the album tgt. k though i alrdy noe beforehand that we may meet, but still it's a may only. and the scene of we 2 opening the album right after we walked out of popular is damn desperate. haha. and smth even more cool was, uncle phil actually went to the same place to buy the album before us. so it's like 3 albums sold within 30mins.
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just wanna record down what i have been doing these few months..
we did PTC usher. kind of tiring but fun. and the ptc was lame.
i had always wanted my mum to go for ptc in the past.
but she juz wasn't interested.
but this time she had to go because of my results and not cuz i wanted her to go.

there was teacher's day rehearsals and of course teacher's day itself.
for me i tht most of the rehearsals were quite screwed
and sadly im the 2nd programme ic.
apparently i haven done much as a 2nd ic.
seriously almost nothing.
i dun like the feeling
i believe there is lack of communication and i wasn't active enough
so i carn blame.
it's over so i shall not comment too much.
but i loved the preparation nite.
though it's into late nite, but it was damnnn cool
the running up and down btw staff room and council room.
the throwing of practically everything down from the council room window.
the moving of the tables and chairs.
but there were scenes that wasn't that nice that i saw.
i saw a very different side of some TAs. yea.
the teacher's day itself was pretty nice. nothing much screwed except for that 2 major incidents. haix.
went back to ahs. then it turned out to be a mass gathering for our batch instead of looking for the teachers cause they all left for the flyer alrdy.
went 85 to eat abit
after that went 18 with ys, shirley and jiemin. great time. great food of course.
shirley is as cute as ever, ys as cool as ever and jiemin as jiemin as ever.

finally we had our 2nd interview for pw.
happy to feel very welcomed by mr chan
we had their company's coporate gifts which are super informative(:
and we got to see a life demo of the equipments. super cool.

dinner at 85 with asg is always love.
i felt damn empty this friday when i din get to meet them up for dinner cuz tj ppl are still busy with promos.
we can just talk abt anything under the sun, no under the moon.
and seeing some ppl da qing ma qiao and some ppl going crazy over conversations.
and best is going high over discussing abt chalets but we all know it isn't booked.
and we have limited resources to book them =(

sept holiday.
mon: met up with the notebook vendor to finalise things.
again he was late.
zz 1.5 hrs late
but at least it's settle at $1.50 and i like the book alot(:
after that went to mug at coffeebean but it sucked like hell becuz of the smoke
then we went to t3
tues: chionged the PW proposal outline. whole day gone.
so yea it's everyday airport muggin..
wed: with nina and sup , saw mr owen tan and family! we 3 had discussions over them
and mr tan is so random, he went to cut his hair at the airport!
thurs: ownself muggin saw kewei, joel and poline
fri: maths and gp consultation with isabelle
concluded miss kok is so fast into the qn and mr hing is a busy man.
airport muggin. saw miss yulin who came to ask lame chem questions. and oh i saw miss june tan. she's cute and funny
sat : airport muggin again. struggled alot for not being able to go for yellow ribbon concert. i shld have went. wasted my time on sun instead. stupid.

back to sch was sian.
couldn't study after sch. too tired.
wasted my life
there went my muggin momentum.
eom was due and im pretty sure it's not EE neither anwhere near.
saturday was dental.
it was kinda lame that the ma2 zui4 only came after he finished the drilling and stuff.
stupid waste my money.
and half my mouth and tongue couldn't move. i looked like a retard tryin to move them.
after that mug at airport.

another 2 days in sch which wasted more of my life and time.
lucky frm wed afternoon onwards i was back to airport muggin.

yea so promos is here. and it ended.
im screwed. everyone did better for promos than mye
but i feel i did better for mye
so im vvv screwed.
i feel damn unjustified for my econs. not i dunno is i too slow.
physics here and there stunned.
chem same as econs.
whole thurs do maths.
friday maths paper i hope i pass.
oh the wed morning before chem paper was crazily old
like in genting like that.
the rain and wind. madness.

that's abt all.
no mlb until only last thurs nite.
happiness frm thurs until now.
just wait till sch reopens.
a screwed pw wr awaits.
and open house = mass danceSSSSS
and farewell assembly. im not on momentum yet.
i wan it nicely done up to my expectations. hopefully.
i can do things that i expect, but i carn get others to do it.
and i always dun give ppl enough time. rarr.

nvm i shall think of happy things.
yay auto session at j8 on 11th!!! wheee
im so gonna go early and be at the front!
and hmmm hopefully i can go for 17th auto session.
why isit bpp. i hate that place man. it takes forever for me to get there and get out of there.
ok now worry abt wad to do for them
and i wanna share gifts!