binnnnn

now i know wad is NEVER HOLD HIGH HOPES
the higher hopes u hold, the greater fall you get
the fall is so terrible that it over triumphs failing?
i wanted to cry so badly for my geo
but i knew it wasn't appropriate as i din fail or smth
but i held seriously super high hopes on it
and somemore i needed it to pull my combined humanities
i believed i did well but somehow i was wrong
it was the lowest ever geo mark i got for a mye or eoy
it was going perfectly well for my geo last yr
but it jux *poof* dropped like some donkey this yr
i actually failed my first geo ct
then pass by 2 marks i think for the 2nd ct
i tht it was because i cmi for this yr's topics
i did my most confident 2 topics for mye
manufacturing & tourism
i studied equally hard for both
and first time ever i memorised everything
tb, mrtan's ppt, marianne
yet the irony was i failed tourism
and i passed manufacturing with like 14/15
im not tryin to boast or anything
but seriously the paper was meant to be a easy one
but yet i flunked
so wad will happen during 'o's

i dunno wad to do
i dunno who to talk to
frens will console and say it is only mye
family wldn't understand
i wanna really cry it out hard non-stop

combined humanities C5
L1R5 baoed
and this time round im confirmed plus chop my mum have to meet helen
gosh life is so gonna suck
i dun wan it to happen

can i seriously say that teachers make a difference in how well i fare?
or perhaps that is jux my excuse
i dunno

for bio
all because of mrs lee
im going back onto the right track
i still can remember
last yr beginning
mark sheet for bio for 3k
all the As.. 1 & 2
and only here and there a 3/4
then next was after chan took over
when mrslee left us
then the mark sheet started to have more 3/4 appearing
and even 5 appearing..
then after which poh took over
the situation got abit better
but it was still many 3/4 over but with also many those expected A ppl
and tata this yr mrslee took us back
and last yr that very first mark sheet de scene appeared again
it is all the As all over with like lowest only 3 and is high 3
that is the power of mrslee
jux at the glance of the 4 mark sheets
u can see how a teacher makes a big difference

next is chem
all thanks to our zestful miss chan
she rocks totally
she jux looks so like strict and fierce on the outside
but she is ever so nice inside
and she dun mind spoiling her health to get that zest out of us
and i simply love it
when she tries like million of ways to make sure we really know wad we are supposed to know
she doesn't freaking care if she will be behind schedule
she makes sure we get the things right in our head first
then afterwhich she finds a way to catch up if we are too slow
and lol she is random man
today she told jiemin her red bag was a nice sch bag
cuz it is red and it caught her attention
lol then i was like eh does this red bk (chem tb) catch ur attention too?
then she gave that leng dao look
then she said oh definitely cuz i know it is a chemistry textbook
hahah she simply loves chem like her life

these 2 teachers simply made me love bio and chem
while doing the paper i was thinking of cannot let them down cuz they put in so much effort for us
and i felt really bad and terrible for not scoring for chem

english..
during sec 1 n 2 i had all the B4 and C5
but it started going up in sec3
frm 4 to low 3 to high 3 to even 1 time a 2/1
but at least it was maintained at somewhere 3
and poof it dropped terribly back to super low 4
she makes the effort to make us do then she marks
but when going thru ans
she always say things like oh u ppl have this mis this mis
then she stops
cause whenever she tries to continue
she realise she dunno how to correct us
she will jux say things like we cannot do it this way
we have to do it the correct way
but we end up dunno how to correct it
and she always like to like skip or run away
when she doesn't know how to explain why we are doin the wrg way
she jux noes it is wrong
i know that it is not that she doesn't put in effort to help us
but the thing is i dun get the help
cuz she dunno how to dui zheng xia yao

geo..
it is also that she does her job in teaching
but somehow i dun get it
or perhaps i jux dun click with that 2 topics
at least my mapwork improved i think
i haven gotten a b3 or above for geo yet this yr
im aiming for A to help pull my ss

ss..
i think miss zarinah really puts in that effort to make sure we get it
but i jux dun get it
but i think i get it but im slow
and becuz of the time limit and im slow
it ends up that i start to panic and get everything wrong