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okay.. i din noe actually so many ppl actually cares for me and comes to my blog.. i felt better after i wrote that post.. vented my anger..

chinyee: no prob.. ((: take care kaex.. cyaz tmr..
lynn: hahah i will.. perhaps next time i will sleep then u wake me up.. hahaha..
sock: yeah thx loads n loads n loads to ya for listening to all my stupid crap.. ya i understand and remember that tian tian quan theory but i dunno if i can apply it.. yupx.. yesh i noe u are always a call away only.. ((: i will try to relax myself.. u take care too..
lynn: yeah i noe there is nothing i can do when ppl bu shuang or dun like me or wadever.. i dun fail subjects de u noe.. its like failing a subject is not a easy thing for me to xiang de kai.. and loads of ppl did well.. its not like the whole level din do well.. i was like exception.. haix.. but i hear the sounds i wun be able to sleep.. and i have the fear that he will scold me so i wun dare slp.. and i dun ever think i will be able to slp with all that sound.. u are a pro.. hahah.. u work hard for maths and u will do well.. u can try to do like the maths workbook exercises.. they are good .. ((:
huiling: dunno if wanna pon.. cuz have to see if there is a need anot first... cuz needa settle some stuffs then dunno can be done tmr anot.. so see see lorz.. i also dun wish to pon.. later attendance got 0 then so ugly.. lolx..
lihan: yeah im tryin to chil.. i think i wun have anymore fire to heat up le.. yesh the camp is gonna rawk.. and its gonna bond everyone~!!! ya lahx.. i carn stand him.. i used to be anti real anti co de.. all bcuz of him.. then kai qiao le.. then now he like that to us again.. i think i wun hate back co, but i wun look forward to like pracs.. ya.. yeah i noe u lurv me cuz i also lurv u.. hahaha.. ya i noe why he scolds.. thats why i kai qiaoed.. but still will have bad memories.. its the pressure that he gives that helped to push me more to make me improve.. but it leaves a bad scar even after success.. haix.. yeah i failed my grade 1.. so i already experienced it b4.. so i noe i wun be that sad.. and i have u to pei me right.. ahhaha..
huiling: arloee arloeee arloee arloeee... quick run for the food... i want claypot chicken rice, fried egg n soup!!! okay bye .. quick quick quick run back to tell them change of plans.. lolx...
lynn: yeah i will cheer up de.. ((: me this direct senior whom u can talk to will restore to original soon.. oh i din noe i was the first person to talk to u when u entered co.. oh my im so honoured... okay thx..
shiyeng: thx for being there for me.. ya its nvm that u dunno how to concole.. cuz i also dunno how.. but be prepared to be spased by me tmr.. hahahaa.. yeah i noe u will be sad for me.. cuz no one will spas with u.. then u will be so lonely.. yeah now i noe someone who will cry for me.. ((:
wenxin: happy for u two that u 2 he hao le.. ((: ya its my turn not okay now.. yeah i will cheer up and tmr shall be a better day for me.. ((: yea lurv ya too.. yea if i need to i will talk to ya.. ((: thx loads..
anonymous: may i noe who u are... u have never tagged b4.. or i suppose u never come to this blog b4 ... yeah i noe all the dao lis of friendships and wadever.. i noe i noe.. i will try to.. im tryin to .. but i dun seem to get it.. perhaps im jux too block headed.. i dun feel good with all this crap of not forgiving.. but i have to make myself believe that i can do it ... thx for all ur dao lis.. i dun wanna to regret anything.. ya..

okay really really loads n loads n loads to the power of infnity for u ppl caring abt me.. i will cheer up and xiang kai de.. at least now i noe that many of u really care for me.. ((:

yupz okay wadever okay.. its all my fault can.. everything is my fault.. ya its all my fault that i dun tell u anything dun response dun anything.. okay i noe i noe.. okay all i have to say is that its all my fault can? ya ppl get to defend themselves when they comit a crime, in court they have all the lawyers and ppl.. ya i convicted u with all the crimes without letting u noe wad u did.. ya but why? and i dun think that all this started with only a small matter... its like i have been compromising alot of things... its jux that u dun noe.. then i ren n ren n ren then i see things getting worse day by day.. its like u are just goin on n on the way u like.. u feel that there is nth wrong with loads of the things that u did.. but do u noe that that is jux ur own opinions... its like so many things that u did made me bu shuang.. that i wasn't able to even like confront u or tell u b4 the next thing that u did pissed me off again.. its like when i get pissed off, u think i can still tell u wad happened b4... its like i see le then already cannot liao... im not pushing all the blames on u can.. its like im at fault that i dun tell u wad happened that made me so pissed.. but im jux so pissed to even tell u ... i dun expect u to noe exactly all the things that made me so bu shuang with u.. cuz i noe its impossible.. but dun u feel that u are having so much actions that u wld never in the past? i dun noe if wad i feel that why u are having such actions are correct.. but i suppose they are.. cuz i carn think of other reasons that made u become like that.. and at first i only liked din speak extra to u cuz i wanted to cool down.. think.. then before i cld cool down. u did more stuffs.. then its like i get more pissed off with u.. then wad? i din noe how to react.. so all i cld do was to ignore u.. i din noe wad i can do... i see ur face then i think of the things that u did.. how am i to face u calmly then tell u that u pissed me off here n there.. then get more pissed off when i come to think of it.. then i see u acting so innocent and blur this and that and the attitude that u had... wow i jux feel that everything is so fake.. its like u appear so angelic.. then if anyone is to listen to me abt wad made me so pissed, no one is ever gonna believe me over u... ya and as if i believe u ONLY told her, 1 person abt this.. ya i believe.. i sincerely believe.. yayaa.. and u said that u kept apologising and i din respond right.. ya ya.. i admit i din.. but i jux carn bring myself to respond to u.. i jux get so pissed.. ya u said that u kept apologising.. ya i think ur definition is quite different frm me.. ur kept was merely 2x i think.. once that was like said it out of no where then like jux like that .. like as if i was to say that to u, u wld noe wad the crap im apologising for, and next was the letter.. i already mentioned that i nearly wanted to accept ur apologisation and get back with u.. but u spoilt it.. ya u think i was the one who spoilt it instead of u.. perhaps it was or it wasn't .. i dun noe.. i carn push all the blame to u.. but i am really pissed off with u... i believe in wad i see and hear with my own eyes n ears.. kaex if u really think that im the one who doesn't want to salvage this, then i have nothing to say.. really NOTHING... but if u really still wish to salvage this, i think there is still hope.. stop all ur crap actions that pisses me.. i noe u dun noe wad are they, but jux think of wad u are doin when u will never do in the past.. i think i will only cool down by after the march holidays.. cuz thats when u will not be able to have those crap actions..