Sunday, February 26, 2006
okay im jux pissed can..
okay i dun noe wadever u are thinkin now are wadever u are telling ppl now.. okay now anyone who listens to you right are gonna oppose me.. cuz no one will ever like believe me over u, unless ppl who are real close to me or ppl who experienced the same thing as i did.. it is almost impossible for ppl to choose to believe wadever i may sae over to wad u sae.. im jux pissed off with u.. after that letter i sort of relfected if i had been too mean or wadever.. i tht over it how i shld change my attitude so that things wun get worse but instead become better.. but jux the next day i forgot wad i saw or heard or wadever, i jux carn bring myself to forget wad u did.. im jux totally pissed.. okay u wanted to salvage it, i also wanted to, its like so many yrs of frenship... its gonna be like the 7th yr already.. its like so rare to have such a long frenship... u think i am freaking care abt it.. u think i dun wanna salvage it.. but its like b4 i can do anything u already spoilt it.. things are getting worser n worser... i jux dun noe why.. perhaps its that bug thats goin on that is makin so many ppl having probs with frenship now.. i dunno.. i dunno wad i want to do.. i jux do anything that i feel that i wun regret after that decision..
wadever it is.. i have been in vvv bad mood.. and things are all coming tgt ... everything is like against me.. wadever... thx real loads n loads n loads n loads to hui ling listening to me and everything.. thx laods.. and socks thx for listening to me being so ji dong talking over the phone..
and ppl im not worryin or thinkin much abt my failing my piano.. cuz i expected it.. there are so loads of things that are worse than that...
friday.. first lesson was chinese.. sian diao.. din do the compre.. then me n shirley copied all the model answers down as 'our answers' ... but we are good cuz we indicated that is the model answer... lolx...
then second lesson was e maths.. ya forgot wad we did..
then was geo.. went to lecture room.. then got back our geo papers... ya my result was okay only.. wasted quite some marks to careless... haix.. but nvm cuz i knew i studied and my marks was average in class? still not that bad huh..
then was ss... yaya i heard frm loads n loads n loads n loads of ppl telling me abt the paper being marked vvv leniently.. ya all the shitt.. alot of ppl get 20++.. yaya .. and wad shitt marks did i get? i FAILED... ya im doom.. i wld confirm be down for ss tutorial then... im already busy enough that i dun feel that i have enough time for myself, then if im to get into tutorial, im in deep shitt.. haix.. ya and failing my ss means a great thing.. my combine humanities marks will be shitt... fail ss and average marks for geo.. wad average does this make?? im in deep shitt... my mum is gonna kill me.. arghhh...
ya then was chemistry.. had the chem test.. and hohohho merry christmas to myself.. i went blank for so many questions... then i was like pek diao .. got so much time left but carn remember the thingys then wads the use.. yaya and wheee im gonna get a vvv low mark for my chem also.. din do well for common test then now this class test also gonna suck.. i carn imagine how i am gonna react when i see my term 1 common test result slip.. ya see le then go die.. aiya actually i die le also no one will cry for me.. its like so many ppl are bu shuang with me, then im like a useless bum who doesn't do well in studies then at home im like a burden ... then wads the big idea of me still here.. no one cares..
ya then after sch was cca.. ya co was sian diao.. brought loads of stuffs into co room to do.. cuz i knew it was gonna be a sian diao prac for shengs again.. as long as he lians jing chu xiong feng, we can jux slack.. he jux dun care abt us.. then when he cares abt us, he is like exceptionally fierce to us.. wads the big idea of u.. u dun teach us during sectionals, u one week di zi one week suo na.. huh or 1 week both teach.. wad abt us.. u are not teaching us anything.. hey hey u carn be that biased right.. its like since this yr when the di zi joined us, u have simply neglected us.. its like every sectionals, the WHOLE sheng is slackin can.. no one wants to prac.. wad can we do.. we keep playing that stupid few notes that we already noe how to.. then even if we are playin wrongly, u also dun noe.. u never teach us how we noe if we playin correct or wrong.. its like every sectionals seem like a self prac.. its like official sectionals we already like dunno wad to do then also no mood to prac, even sl also dun wanna prac le lorz.. then why expect us to come back for the freaking self prac that is like gonna waste our time coming then stone there.. then play that stupid freaking few notes that we already noe.. and its like u dun noe how to socialise can.. u are being too hard with the suo nas.. its like u used to talk to them nicely and everything.. then now u are like so fierce with them, then its like all u do is to scold them... then its like as if when they play well u got like really praise them? u only like joking like that say okok good.. wads the big idea.. then the suo nas wun work hard cuz they already have the negative feeling for their instru.. u scold them EVERY da zu can.. its like wad u did to me when i was in sec 1 n 2.. u practically scolded me every da zu for not being loud enough, then cannot find my note u also scold.. then beats wrong u also scold.. then its like u teach so little... then i have no senior.. my only senior was jux a pro sec 4 kia when i jux merely a sec 1 who jux got to learn abt this instru.. then its like that yr the sec 4s stepped down quite early... i haven learn properly, my senior is gone.. by the time that i was supposed to go da zu without any senior already, i still din noe wad to do.. and its like u will expect i have the same standard u used to have frm my senior.. hey she's pro can.. she's in syco.. im not a pro.. and i was merely a sec 1 then.. then sometimes u think some things are so easy cuz u noe wad.. u are an adult and how long are u in this music thingy already.. of cuz everything is easy to u.. its like of cuz all the things studied in kindegarden is so easy to me now... its like u never put urself in the shoes of ur students.. u are setting too high expectations already can.. its like i have music backgrd i also cannot absorb that fast... it took me till the later sec 2 yr then i cld manage this instru.. then its like i ke lian jo lynn and the suo nas.. they all 5 its like dun really have music backgrd.. then u expect them to noe how to listen to u speak in numbers and the notes? they are all new to music can.. i used to be vvv strong and i have music backgrd and i couldn't take it already last time.. i cried practically every after sectionals n da zu can.. EVERY.. u noe wads every.. its like u are feel that they are so easy when they are not.. and its like u never really taught these 5 juniors theory u noe.. its like they dun noe wads the link btw the diaos .. then they also dunno wad shitt u are talkin abt when u speak in notes... u never taught them and u expect them to noe.. wow.. u pro kia lorz.. its like who wld like listen totally to u , appreciate u, like u when u dun understand us.. if u carn gain this like in students for u, then u will never have students who are gonna be willing to learn properly and u are never gonna have students to work hard for ur sake.. and this makes u a failure.. wad u teach will never get in.. and u are jux wasting ur time.. i jux feel sorry for my juniors.. even i carn take it, let alone them.. you can be a good conductor, but its like u place too high expectation for the students that u 'teach' for sectionals.. this make alot of ppl feel the negative way towards u n the result is fan3 xiao4 guo3... u wun like pressure them untill they get it then they improve... this dun work for many in these recent generations already..
okay i think i have vented enough of my anger already.. this post jux sound so sucky.. eeyer..
after cca was discussion of the camp... we have loads n loads n loads of things not done yet lorz.. its like u ppl dun see it.. u ppl are taking ur own sweet time or shld i say u ppl are taking everything to do on ur own then taking ur time.. we are actually only left with next week b4 the camp is here.. its like we still have grping probs, backup plans probs, the food also haven go place order lorz.. u all dun happy happy wait wait wait then later ppl cannot make it then u cry.. then when u are gonna be out of ur budget, see wad u are gonna do.. 8.50.. i dun see how did u ppl reduce to that amt.. everything is money.. dun forget.. jux alone food will take ard 7 .. then u still need to pay for banner, booklet, prizes, then resources that u need for the games... all these need money u noe.. u ppl did everything on ur own.. yaya and u ppl who did the budget plan right never like discuss with the co treasurer or wadever.. there are loads of things that u may have left out thinking that they are available for FOC? for example, i din realise that actually the expenses of a class can be so high, if not for being the class treasurer, i wldn't have known.. then now u all also never really discuss with co de treasurer.. wadever.. u ppl are pros.. u all know ALOT OF THINGS.. cuz u only pass the skill of the alot of things that u noe among the 2 of u.. yayaya i WILL noe the alot of things when ppl keep it to themselves.. u keep it to urseleves then of cuz in the end only few[no not few, is pitiful 1] will know the alot of things that is supposed to help in the planing of the camp... its like someone is goin the way he or she wants cuz he or she is afraid or dun want to go the way that he or she is supposed to go.. u are only making use of ur authority to like escape frm things that u dun wanna do take part in.. okay all this has no link to wad i wanted to say at first.. its like we have loads of things to say n discuss and we are wasting our time on wad? on waiting.. yar.. and waiting for some stupid reasons.. then i see no link why must like make it this way then say that can change de.. u think u say then is can ah.. unless no one else saw.. its like why have it this way in the first place when u already knew that when we see it, we wun agree to it..why purposely want to put like that first then make changes.. its not that u say u want to change, u can change it.. or even if u sucessfully change it, u may have already caused a conflict..
okay enough of this shitt.. molecule de 6 ppl went to eat tgt for dinner~!!!! ((: yeah there was daddie, me , chew, van, hui ling n xiao mei yi yee.. lalala we wanted to go to 85 but it was closed so went to 511 instead.. we walked in twos.. hahaa.. huiling was talking to yi yee.. then van was talking to chew.. then left me n daddie.. so we talked lorz.. talked abt cca handling over and cca a close down.. haha.. then also talked abt class tee.. he designed 3j's class tee.. ya then we had a great dinner.. really felt like a family.. we ordered a big claypot rice then we shared, then ordered soup n fried egg frm the zhi2 cha4 stall.. hahaha then 6 ppl drank 11 cups of drinks.. lolx.. i was the xtra who din have a 2nd cup... we were spas.. we cleared the table after eating.. we stacked the used plates n bowls n utensils.. then all put nicely, then took photo.. then hui ling n van were mad over taking photo of the claypot.. hahaha.. then took photo of the 11 cups too.. hahah all the spastic things... then went to playgrd.. but matured daddie me n chew din play.. then there was a boi boi keep lookin at us.. then i kept telling junle that that boi boi an4 lian4 him.. hahaha...ya then actually is wanted to walk home with van de.. but then chew n daddie like dunno how to get out of the place, so me n van walked them out then took bus home instead.. then reached home like ard 10 plus gonna 11... lucky mum was bathing then never scold me... ((:
saturday...
ya there was leadership camp .. ((: eh tht i was late .. cuz we were supposed to report by 845.. then i reached at 846.. then when reached, ppl all seated all ard in concourse then got 3k de ppl at the umbrella bench there.. then like gonna 9 like that then mr lee asked us to go into avt.. ya then he was like askin ppl to look out for their attire when we were queueing to enter the avt.. hmm that sounds like ccp was gonna come.. then after me n shirley signed the thingy, the coach adrain asked the 2 of us to sit at the left then we dun care we jux walked to the right.. ops.. he was like give the eh? look.. ops not purposely de.. cuz 3k de ppl all at the right so we sit right lorz.. ya then took quite some time for everyone to settle down.. then alot of late comers.. the wrkshp was nice.. i really feel that it was of use to me.. it was based on the topic of winning relationships.. i learnt alot.. but how i wished that i had learnt all these b4 the class tee incident.. then there wld not be so much unhappiness caused.. haix.. ya the activities were fun.. and we had loads of fun and laughter.. loads...
then there was a break.. then those unresponsible ppl came back like 20 mins when the break was 10 mins only.. then ccp was vvvvv angry.. he lectured us for like got 20 mins? not sure... it was nothing wrong with him being angry then resulting in him scolding us.. cuz we were supposed to be role models then we dun even have the time conscious.. but then he not only scolded abt the late comers.. he scolded alot more..then he pinpointed at 3K n 3L lorz.. wad the crap.. say wad the class comm of these 2 classes mux do smth to make the class go down then reach there on time.. yayaa .. next time whole 3k all report to parade square lahx.. all dun go to classroom at all.. then we all sit nicely one whole roll there b4 anyone comes lahx.. we were not the only ones late lorz.. then he said wad crap i see the form teacher of the class i noe wad the class will be like.. then form teacher is vv important in leading the class..the class comm n form teacher shldn't be led by the peers but instead the peers shld be led by the class comm n form teacher.. wad are u tryin to say lorz... purposely see us bu shuang de isit.. even though we are the last 2 classes to reach right but the prob is that we still settle b4 the 2nd bell ? cuz its like u wait for the 2nd bell b4 u can start the flag raising right.. then wads the big idea abt reaching last ? there will always be a last de mahx.. u tell me how to not have a last for this situation? even if u reach there at 700 , u may be the last, cuz the others all reach b4 700.. it is impossible not to have a last.. no last then means no stop lorz.. crap.. he purposely wanna say 3KnL de lorz.. then its like the leadership wrkshop de coach andy said that to win relationships we must see the positive side of the prsn, see the best in them.. not to be fierce and scold n scold n scold n scold them.. but instead praise them.. then they will listen to u, repect u... then isn't this a win win situation? ya that was taught b4 the break.. and after the break ccp was lecturing us.. keep sayin abt wanna give us jc privileges... then the previleges are wad wear sport shoes.. i dun see wads so great abt wearing sport shoes.. i dun need it.. i dun think that it is a previlege to me.. we are a secondary sch, wads the point of giving us jc previleges? i dun see a need for us to wear sport shoes to sch.. we dun sprint ard the sch when we change classrooms right.. ya then if u allow sports shoes then there maybe thefs of the shoes lorz.. its like when u remove ur shoe to enter a carpeted room.. then later ppl take away.. more probs lorz.. i dun see a need for this privilege.. all i ask for is to take away the sch socks.. ya its like ccp is contradicting wad the coach taught us.. he scold n scold n scold.. he din praise anything or anyone.. he even ended sayin ask us to beware of our attire.. its like he scold scold scold then he scold everyone lorz.. then wad abt those innocent ppl who goes law by law.. we get scolding for wad.. he want he scold those who never follow the law lahx..
the wrkshp was real fun.. except for the break.. then there was another wrkshp for moitors n monitresses after that.. until 330 then lunch provided.. then there were still vacancies for those who were interested but not monitor or monitress.. the wrkshpt sounded fun.. hmm actually wanted to stay but no 3k de comm stay xcept for sammy n yeow jiang who had to stay.. then haix nevermind lorz.. so went to 85 to eat with yingsii and shirley.. ya then we talked alot of the bu shuangs we had.. hahaha.. then went back with huiling.. then talked to her.. then talk until too sit in her hse n talk to her.. hahahaa.. then after quite some time then left..
im jux pissed with so much things.. then so many ppl bu shuang with me.. haix.. this is jux the reality.. there is nth i can do.. when i ask abt wad opinions or wad bu shuang u want to say abt the tee u all all tiam tiam .. all dun wanna sae anything.. then now that things are getting near to settled i see ppl voicing their opinions.. ya ya .. purposely again right.. then i also noe that it is the input of the tee that counts not the final design that counts... but wads the point? we ask then no one respond.. not minority kaex.. is majority no response.. then wad u all want? u all only want like we come up with ideas then u all say if u all shuang or not shuang.. then have opinions then dun wanna say.. then purposely wanna wait till when gonna settle le then say... wads the point.. when we were struggling to get the opinions of the class then dun wanna sae.. then we struggled to noe wad exactly the class ppl bu shuang with and wad exactly they wanted.. no one wanted to say.. u think that not sayin when asked is helpin, then when gonna settle then u say, then wad u expect us to do? okay i do admit that all these problems caused could have started based on 1 prob... it was that we din ask the class to submit design proposals at the v beginning.. then the public already got bu shuang with the in charge then they jux heck care liao, they carn be bothered cuz they feel that wad they say the in charge also wun listen.. so, many of the ppl jux din want to take part already.. and bcuz of this, we carn get things done, and many disputes were caused.. so the problem was that this thingy started in the wrong way.. so all i hope now is that the tee turns out nice then at least all the disputes caused is still with good result... not that the class drifted apart bcuz of this, then the tee dun turn out nice, then everything will be like gone case.. and the sec 3 bonding camp is gonna to be needed to bond 3k.. yesh..
kaex i typed all this for 2 hrs.. wow.. so its gonna be 4 soon...lalala i haven do loads of hw.. arghhh...
wadever it is.. i have been in vvv bad mood.. and things are all coming tgt ... everything is like against me.. wadever... thx real loads n loads n loads n loads to hui ling listening to me and everything.. thx laods.. and socks thx for listening to me being so ji dong talking over the phone..
and ppl im not worryin or thinkin much abt my failing my piano.. cuz i expected it.. there are so loads of things that are worse than that...
friday.. first lesson was chinese.. sian diao.. din do the compre.. then me n shirley copied all the model answers down as 'our answers' ... but we are good cuz we indicated that is the model answer... lolx...
then second lesson was e maths.. ya forgot wad we did..
then was geo.. went to lecture room.. then got back our geo papers... ya my result was okay only.. wasted quite some marks to careless... haix.. but nvm cuz i knew i studied and my marks was average in class? still not that bad huh..
then was ss... yaya i heard frm loads n loads n loads n loads of ppl telling me abt the paper being marked vvv leniently.. ya all the shitt.. alot of ppl get 20++.. yaya .. and wad shitt marks did i get? i FAILED... ya im doom.. i wld confirm be down for ss tutorial then... im already busy enough that i dun feel that i have enough time for myself, then if im to get into tutorial, im in deep shitt.. haix.. ya and failing my ss means a great thing.. my combine humanities marks will be shitt... fail ss and average marks for geo.. wad average does this make?? im in deep shitt... my mum is gonna kill me.. arghhh...
ya then was chemistry.. had the chem test.. and hohohho merry christmas to myself.. i went blank for so many questions... then i was like pek diao .. got so much time left but carn remember the thingys then wads the use.. yaya and wheee im gonna get a vvv low mark for my chem also.. din do well for common test then now this class test also gonna suck.. i carn imagine how i am gonna react when i see my term 1 common test result slip.. ya see le then go die.. aiya actually i die le also no one will cry for me.. its like so many ppl are bu shuang with me, then im like a useless bum who doesn't do well in studies then at home im like a burden ... then wads the big idea of me still here.. no one cares..
ya then after sch was cca.. ya co was sian diao.. brought loads of stuffs into co room to do.. cuz i knew it was gonna be a sian diao prac for shengs again.. as long as he lians jing chu xiong feng, we can jux slack.. he jux dun care abt us.. then when he cares abt us, he is like exceptionally fierce to us.. wads the big idea of u.. u dun teach us during sectionals, u one week di zi one week suo na.. huh or 1 week both teach.. wad abt us.. u are not teaching us anything.. hey hey u carn be that biased right.. its like since this yr when the di zi joined us, u have simply neglected us.. its like every sectionals, the WHOLE sheng is slackin can.. no one wants to prac.. wad can we do.. we keep playing that stupid few notes that we already noe how to.. then even if we are playin wrongly, u also dun noe.. u never teach us how we noe if we playin correct or wrong.. its like every sectionals seem like a self prac.. its like official sectionals we already like dunno wad to do then also no mood to prac, even sl also dun wanna prac le lorz.. then why expect us to come back for the freaking self prac that is like gonna waste our time coming then stone there.. then play that stupid freaking few notes that we already noe.. and its like u dun noe how to socialise can.. u are being too hard with the suo nas.. its like u used to talk to them nicely and everything.. then now u are like so fierce with them, then its like all u do is to scold them... then its like as if when they play well u got like really praise them? u only like joking like that say okok good.. wads the big idea.. then the suo nas wun work hard cuz they already have the negative feeling for their instru.. u scold them EVERY da zu can.. its like wad u did to me when i was in sec 1 n 2.. u practically scolded me every da zu for not being loud enough, then cannot find my note u also scold.. then beats wrong u also scold.. then its like u teach so little... then i have no senior.. my only senior was jux a pro sec 4 kia when i jux merely a sec 1 who jux got to learn abt this instru.. then its like that yr the sec 4s stepped down quite early... i haven learn properly, my senior is gone.. by the time that i was supposed to go da zu without any senior already, i still din noe wad to do.. and its like u will expect i have the same standard u used to have frm my senior.. hey she's pro can.. she's in syco.. im not a pro.. and i was merely a sec 1 then.. then sometimes u think some things are so easy cuz u noe wad.. u are an adult and how long are u in this music thingy already.. of cuz everything is easy to u.. its like of cuz all the things studied in kindegarden is so easy to me now... its like u never put urself in the shoes of ur students.. u are setting too high expectations already can.. its like i have music backgrd i also cannot absorb that fast... it took me till the later sec 2 yr then i cld manage this instru.. then its like i ke lian jo lynn and the suo nas.. they all 5 its like dun really have music backgrd.. then u expect them to noe how to listen to u speak in numbers and the notes? they are all new to music can.. i used to be vvv strong and i have music backgrd and i couldn't take it already last time.. i cried practically every after sectionals n da zu can.. EVERY.. u noe wads every.. its like u are feel that they are so easy when they are not.. and its like u never really taught these 5 juniors theory u noe.. its like they dun noe wads the link btw the diaos .. then they also dunno wad shitt u are talkin abt when u speak in notes... u never taught them and u expect them to noe.. wow.. u pro kia lorz.. its like who wld like listen totally to u , appreciate u, like u when u dun understand us.. if u carn gain this like in students for u, then u will never have students who are gonna be willing to learn properly and u are never gonna have students to work hard for ur sake.. and this makes u a failure.. wad u teach will never get in.. and u are jux wasting ur time.. i jux feel sorry for my juniors.. even i carn take it, let alone them.. you can be a good conductor, but its like u place too high expectation for the students that u 'teach' for sectionals.. this make alot of ppl feel the negative way towards u n the result is fan3 xiao4 guo3... u wun like pressure them untill they get it then they improve... this dun work for many in these recent generations already..
okay i think i have vented enough of my anger already.. this post jux sound so sucky.. eeyer..
after cca was discussion of the camp... we have loads n loads n loads of things not done yet lorz.. its like u ppl dun see it.. u ppl are taking ur own sweet time or shld i say u ppl are taking everything to do on ur own then taking ur time.. we are actually only left with next week b4 the camp is here.. its like we still have grping probs, backup plans probs, the food also haven go place order lorz.. u all dun happy happy wait wait wait then later ppl cannot make it then u cry.. then when u are gonna be out of ur budget, see wad u are gonna do.. 8.50.. i dun see how did u ppl reduce to that amt.. everything is money.. dun forget.. jux alone food will take ard 7 .. then u still need to pay for banner, booklet, prizes, then resources that u need for the games... all these need money u noe.. u ppl did everything on ur own.. yaya and u ppl who did the budget plan right never like discuss with the co treasurer or wadever.. there are loads of things that u may have left out thinking that they are available for FOC? for example, i din realise that actually the expenses of a class can be so high, if not for being the class treasurer, i wldn't have known.. then now u all also never really discuss with co de treasurer.. wadever.. u ppl are pros.. u all know ALOT OF THINGS.. cuz u only pass the skill of the alot of things that u noe among the 2 of u.. yayaya i WILL noe the alot of things when ppl keep it to themselves.. u keep it to urseleves then of cuz in the end only few[no not few, is pitiful 1] will know the alot of things that is supposed to help in the planing of the camp... its like someone is goin the way he or she wants cuz he or she is afraid or dun want to go the way that he or she is supposed to go.. u are only making use of ur authority to like escape frm things that u dun wanna do take part in.. okay all this has no link to wad i wanted to say at first.. its like we have loads of things to say n discuss and we are wasting our time on wad? on waiting.. yar.. and waiting for some stupid reasons.. then i see no link why must like make it this way then say that can change de.. u think u say then is can ah.. unless no one else saw.. its like why have it this way in the first place when u already knew that when we see it, we wun agree to it..why purposely want to put like that first then make changes.. its not that u say u want to change, u can change it.. or even if u sucessfully change it, u may have already caused a conflict..
okay enough of this shitt.. molecule de 6 ppl went to eat tgt for dinner~!!!! ((: yeah there was daddie, me , chew, van, hui ling n xiao mei yi yee.. lalala we wanted to go to 85 but it was closed so went to 511 instead.. we walked in twos.. hahaa.. huiling was talking to yi yee.. then van was talking to chew.. then left me n daddie.. so we talked lorz.. talked abt cca handling over and cca a close down.. haha.. then also talked abt class tee.. he designed 3j's class tee.. ya then we had a great dinner.. really felt like a family.. we ordered a big claypot rice then we shared, then ordered soup n fried egg frm the zhi2 cha4 stall.. hahaha then 6 ppl drank 11 cups of drinks.. lolx.. i was the xtra who din have a 2nd cup... we were spas.. we cleared the table after eating.. we stacked the used plates n bowls n utensils.. then all put nicely, then took photo.. then hui ling n van were mad over taking photo of the claypot.. hahaha.. then took photo of the 11 cups too.. hahah all the spastic things... then went to playgrd.. but matured daddie me n chew din play.. then there was a boi boi keep lookin at us.. then i kept telling junle that that boi boi an4 lian4 him.. hahaha...ya then actually is wanted to walk home with van de.. but then chew n daddie like dunno how to get out of the place, so me n van walked them out then took bus home instead.. then reached home like ard 10 plus gonna 11... lucky mum was bathing then never scold me... ((:
saturday...
ya there was leadership camp .. ((: eh tht i was late .. cuz we were supposed to report by 845.. then i reached at 846.. then when reached, ppl all seated all ard in concourse then got 3k de ppl at the umbrella bench there.. then like gonna 9 like that then mr lee asked us to go into avt.. ya then he was like askin ppl to look out for their attire when we were queueing to enter the avt.. hmm that sounds like ccp was gonna come.. then after me n shirley signed the thingy, the coach adrain asked the 2 of us to sit at the left then we dun care we jux walked to the right.. ops.. he was like give the eh? look.. ops not purposely de.. cuz 3k de ppl all at the right so we sit right lorz.. ya then took quite some time for everyone to settle down.. then alot of late comers.. the wrkshp was nice.. i really feel that it was of use to me.. it was based on the topic of winning relationships.. i learnt alot.. but how i wished that i had learnt all these b4 the class tee incident.. then there wld not be so much unhappiness caused.. haix.. ya the activities were fun.. and we had loads of fun and laughter.. loads...
then there was a break.. then those unresponsible ppl came back like 20 mins when the break was 10 mins only.. then ccp was vvvvv angry.. he lectured us for like got 20 mins? not sure... it was nothing wrong with him being angry then resulting in him scolding us.. cuz we were supposed to be role models then we dun even have the time conscious.. but then he not only scolded abt the late comers.. he scolded alot more..then he pinpointed at 3K n 3L lorz.. wad the crap.. say wad the class comm of these 2 classes mux do smth to make the class go down then reach there on time.. yayaa .. next time whole 3k all report to parade square lahx.. all dun go to classroom at all.. then we all sit nicely one whole roll there b4 anyone comes lahx.. we were not the only ones late lorz.. then he said wad crap i see the form teacher of the class i noe wad the class will be like.. then form teacher is vv important in leading the class..the class comm n form teacher shldn't be led by the peers but instead the peers shld be led by the class comm n form teacher.. wad are u tryin to say lorz... purposely see us bu shuang de isit.. even though we are the last 2 classes to reach right but the prob is that we still settle b4 the 2nd bell ? cuz its like u wait for the 2nd bell b4 u can start the flag raising right.. then wads the big idea abt reaching last ? there will always be a last de mahx.. u tell me how to not have a last for this situation? even if u reach there at 700 , u may be the last, cuz the others all reach b4 700.. it is impossible not to have a last.. no last then means no stop lorz.. crap.. he purposely wanna say 3KnL de lorz.. then its like the leadership wrkshop de coach andy said that to win relationships we must see the positive side of the prsn, see the best in them.. not to be fierce and scold n scold n scold n scold them.. but instead praise them.. then they will listen to u, repect u... then isn't this a win win situation? ya that was taught b4 the break.. and after the break ccp was lecturing us.. keep sayin abt wanna give us jc privileges... then the previleges are wad wear sport shoes.. i dun see wads so great abt wearing sport shoes.. i dun need it.. i dun think that it is a previlege to me.. we are a secondary sch, wads the point of giving us jc previleges? i dun see a need for us to wear sport shoes to sch.. we dun sprint ard the sch when we change classrooms right.. ya then if u allow sports shoes then there maybe thefs of the shoes lorz.. its like when u remove ur shoe to enter a carpeted room.. then later ppl take away.. more probs lorz.. i dun see a need for this privilege.. all i ask for is to take away the sch socks.. ya its like ccp is contradicting wad the coach taught us.. he scold n scold n scold.. he din praise anything or anyone.. he even ended sayin ask us to beware of our attire.. its like he scold scold scold then he scold everyone lorz.. then wad abt those innocent ppl who goes law by law.. we get scolding for wad.. he want he scold those who never follow the law lahx..
the wrkshp was real fun.. except for the break.. then there was another wrkshp for moitors n monitresses after that.. until 330 then lunch provided.. then there were still vacancies for those who were interested but not monitor or monitress.. the wrkshpt sounded fun.. hmm actually wanted to stay but no 3k de comm stay xcept for sammy n yeow jiang who had to stay.. then haix nevermind lorz.. so went to 85 to eat with yingsii and shirley.. ya then we talked alot of the bu shuangs we had.. hahaha.. then went back with huiling.. then talked to her.. then talk until too sit in her hse n talk to her.. hahahaa.. then after quite some time then left..
im jux pissed with so much things.. then so many ppl bu shuang with me.. haix.. this is jux the reality.. there is nth i can do.. when i ask abt wad opinions or wad bu shuang u want to say abt the tee u all all tiam tiam .. all dun wanna sae anything.. then now that things are getting near to settled i see ppl voicing their opinions.. ya ya .. purposely again right.. then i also noe that it is the input of the tee that counts not the final design that counts... but wads the point? we ask then no one respond.. not minority kaex.. is majority no response.. then wad u all want? u all only want like we come up with ideas then u all say if u all shuang or not shuang.. then have opinions then dun wanna say.. then purposely wanna wait till when gonna settle le then say... wads the point.. when we were struggling to get the opinions of the class then dun wanna sae.. then we struggled to noe wad exactly the class ppl bu shuang with and wad exactly they wanted.. no one wanted to say.. u think that not sayin when asked is helpin, then when gonna settle then u say, then wad u expect us to do? okay i do admit that all these problems caused could have started based on 1 prob... it was that we din ask the class to submit design proposals at the v beginning.. then the public already got bu shuang with the in charge then they jux heck care liao, they carn be bothered cuz they feel that wad they say the in charge also wun listen.. so, many of the ppl jux din want to take part already.. and bcuz of this, we carn get things done, and many disputes were caused.. so the problem was that this thingy started in the wrong way.. so all i hope now is that the tee turns out nice then at least all the disputes caused is still with good result... not that the class drifted apart bcuz of this, then the tee dun turn out nice, then everything will be like gone case.. and the sec 3 bonding camp is gonna to be needed to bond 3k.. yesh..
kaex i typed all this for 2 hrs.. wow.. so its gonna be 4 soon...lalala i haven do loads of hw.. arghhh...