binnnnn

haixx terribly down with a flu.
i even suspected myself if it was h1n1 :x
but lucky it isn't

been with a terrible block nose and etc for past 2-3weeks
but until last fri it got worse
a horrible sore throat
then went to the doc opposite my house for consultation
sadly i got a newbie doctor i think
he seems quite lost and dunno what to do with me
indeed he was
i was feeling so terrible and yet he gave me only lozenges and a blocked/runny nose tablet.
that cost me SGD$25

my condition got way worse on sat and sun
a sore throat and blocked nose became
breathing difficulty, chest tightness, cough, fever etc
so decided to go another doc
and omg this doctor was wayyyyyyyyyyy more professional
but he's like some one word one word guy who doesn't like to talk much
but he was like so familar with everything that u dun have to tell him much!
then my mum also consulted him then she wasn't really showing much symptoms or wad so ever
then he just did all the test and everything then never say much then done

then what was most shocking was the payment part..
i got 3 medicine and my mum 3 too!
my mum was like i tht there wasn't much problem with her since he din say anything
then woah also got 3 medicine.
then the payment was crazy.
a total of $128++
we tht the reception wasn't talk to us =.=
but omg my bill was SGD$82.20
mum's was 50++


so this dear 3 medicine + consultation cost 82.20
that big big big big box there is the 'bomb' to the total cost
i highly suspect it cost 40-50 bucks
cuz the reception said thats the exp thing
she said it's antibiotic cuz my sore throat is very serious
and the pill size is humongous.
625mg. 1 pill is almost 1.5 the size of a panadol. omgg

so all in all i spent 25+82.20 = SGD$107.20 for 1 illness

I NEEDA RECOVER REALLY SOON
OMG A LEVEL IS REALLY COMING =X

i just want all the unhappy things to be over soon and i really mean SOON!

i knew deep down that it wasn't gonna last
but i tried means and ways to convince myself it was going to
and it appeared as though it was going to last
but there it goes again
i dunno what i can do and what im supposed to do
why is the world so unfair unfair unfair unfair
many a times i wanna break down
but i guess im trained to be too strong and trained to be too independent
i wan but i cannot really
and i guess ppl wun believe what im actually going through now if they are to judge from my behavior these days.
cuz i look no different from normal
but i seriously dunno how. and why.

october seems to be a bad month this yr.
like many bad happenings.

YUMIN..
i felt like cryin after that post
but everything is gonna become and remain as good memories
let time heal
though i know it won't be 100% healed and it will still hurt at times
but just gotta stay strong and live life to the fullest
it won't be easy
but you will be able to cause you know he is looking and hoping so
as i said i survived my 17 years without,
though it still hurts sometimes till today,
but we have to live on,
so you can do it too..
always think of the good memories
and that he has left for a place with lesser pain
be happy for him
and you managed to walk his last journey with him.

WE LOVE YOU ALWAYS(:


sister..
she's thinking too much and stressed out.
tried to..
ended up in cgh for 2.5weeks
but the nurses there are cool
super attentive and jovial
and yar on the 2nd wk of prelims.


mrsam
he sounds so emo on his blog
seems like some big thing but cannot say?
made it sound so metaphorical.
hope he's gonna be alright

let the world be a happier place.